Antonio

to be your fellow you may deny me

but I'll be your servant whether you will or no

possibilities

plucked from my dreams

i still don't believe you're real

...

loving you the only way I know how

from afar

biggest problem with life

in love with an idea, never reality.

mmmmmmmmmmm

oh me oh my, oh me oh my,
how this messes my mind.
try to remember all will work out in time,
but lord how it kills me now!

now,
NOW!

YOU ARE KILLING ME NOW!!!

my lamb

soon to be four, it's hard to believe.
promised myself in five that I'd call

should I even?

I do miss you, you know.
there are some nights that you are the only one I want to talk to, no one else is quiet right for the situation.

would it be worth it?

just because I think of you often doesn't mean you do.

oh, my lamb. my lamb. mylamb. my-lamb.

grant me sleep

insomnia

staying "productive" at 4am.

why?

because i have no ground to stand on.

i drift, there is no destination in sight.

i love, there is no one to reciprocate.

aimless with no air in sails.

atrophy claims my body, why not the heart?

please claim my heart.

i implore you.